Inside each one of us there’s a centre, like the mid point of a circle, forming its core and giving it shape. This centre, is your essence, your true self, and believe it or not it’s the version which, when you best embrace, you feel your best.
But we, as human beings are always scared to get there or even approach that “form” of ourselves which we unconsciously. It is that true version of ourselves, our really true and honest selves hiding under piles of pre-hand perceptions, either of your own or others. It’s the fear of judgement and the inhibited keenness to cling to people’s perceptions, to win their approval, avoid judgement and certainly criticism.
This, I’m afraid to tell you, makes you just another person, perceived by people as “normal” and “ordinary”.
So you brought wasted your effort and sprit to be “normal” while you are meant to be super and unique being who you are.
Here’s what Osho had to say about the matter and which I believe is the explanation most illumination of the concept I’m trying to raise here:
“Nobody can say anything about you. Whatsoever people say is about themselves. But you become very shaky, because you are still clinging to a false center. That false center depends on others, so you are always looking to what people are saying about you. And you are always following other people, you are always trying to satisfy them. You are always trying to be respectable, you are always trying to decorate your ego. This is suicidal. Rather than being disturbed by what others say, you should start looking inside yourself…
Whenever you are self-conscious you are simply showing that you are not conscious of the self at all. You don’t know who you are. If you had known, then there would have been no problem— then you are not seeking opinions. Then you are not worried what others say about you— it is irrelevant!
When you are self-conscious you are in trouble. When you are self-conscious you are really showing symptoms that you don’t know who you are. Your very self-consciousness indicates that you have not come home yet.”
May you always be aware of who you really are, understand it, believe in it and make the best of it.
You are great, great in yourself, great for the person you are and not what others judge you to be or mistakenly understand about you.
Look inside, just make the time and effort to look inside of yourself, you’ll be amazed.